ummi's jurnal on arwah Tok wan..
i first knew ayah a month before our engagement.. that was in November 2003,my first impression of ayah is he is an outspoken person & garang.. After our marriage in June 2004, i get to know him better..He was not as garang as i thought..we rarely talk to each other as we did not met often..we only met if ayah came down to visit us in KL and when we went back to Sg Petani.
i remember the first day when he get to know i am pregnant with Najla..he was realy -really excited to be a grandfather.. he keep on reminding me to take care of my self and the baby inside the womb.When he came down to visit us, he repeatedly told me not to walk around as he scared i will fall down and injured myself..
he will make extra precaution when he knew we are going back to Sg Petani.. he will lay all the kain buruk and tikar at the bathroom door just to ensure that i will not fell down..
The day najla was born he was not here in Malaysia..he was performing haj..and the moment he saw Najla for the first time on the first day he went back from Mecca..his heart melts..i could see from his face how proud he is to received his first grandchild although he was quite scared to hold Najla in his arms for the first time as najla was quite small ( around 2.5kg)
Najla grew up and we will visit him as often as we could..he was so eager to play with Najla..The first word that he will ask when he saw us is Najla mana?..and he would cradles and hold Najla
The last day i saw him healthy is in Malacca where we are involved in the accident..He was more concern of us especially Najla..During angah's wedding in malacca he requested to play with Najla throughout the ceremony..Didn't realize that was the last moment for him to be with Najla cand us..
we received a distress call on 1st July from Sg petani saying he was not well..we really thought he was having a normal heart problem as he had undergone a heart operation in December 2003..We rush back to Sg petani and being inform that he was in a coma..it was not a heart problem after all..it seems that he is having a stroke and his blood vessel in the brain had burst..he underwent a brain surgery on the day itself to insert tubes to drain all the blood and remain coma for a week..
a few days before he passed away, he managed to regain concious..he can move his hands a bit and cry when Mak spoke to him..A day before his demise, he suffers another blow when his lungs collaps and he went back into coma..his chance of surviving is zero..We knew that we will have to prepare for the worst.
Ayah pass away at 3.00 am on 19th July 2006 in Strand Specialist Sg Petani after 19 days of hospitalization..it was the saddest moment in my life to lost a wonderfull father in law..we didn't manage to celebrate our first raya with Najla rogether this year and more occasions that we was not given the time to be together with him..but we was happy that he manage to perfom his Haj and fulfill his wishes to be a grandfather
Alfatihahto my beloved father in law HAJI HASHIM BIN MONTAK..Moga roh ayah di tempatkan di kalangan orang -orang yang soleh..
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